Being an (almost) 22 year old comes with certain expectations. 10 years ago, the mormon world would have expected me to be married with 1 kid and another on the way, especially if I lived in Utah. Today, the average 22 year old is expected to have some sort of degree and a plan for further education. Either that or you are at the very least expected to know what you want to do for the rest of your life, with a plan set in motion. I don't fit into any of these categories. The only plan I have is that I want to make a plan. Pretty pathetic, right?
There are a few things I know I want to plan for. I know that I want to be a wife and mother. I know that I want to get some sort of bachelor's degree, currently I'm going for Psychology with a minor in Education. I know that I want to continue progressing as a disciple of Christ.
There are also a few things I know I need to work on and be careful of. I know that I need to be careful about who I put my trust in (there are a couple of back stories there, neither of which I plan on sharing, EVER). I know that I need to trust that God has a plan for my life and that He will do whatever He can to make sure I fulfill that plan, provided I stay faithful. I know that I need to work on my social skills, specifically with the male species. (If I ever want to get married, that is.) I know that I need to work on seeing individuals as children of God, my brothers and sisters. As the song in Prince of Egypt says, I need to look at my life through heaven's eyes.
Obviously, I don't have it all figured out, far from it. But I know that life is long, the days are short, and I need to take advantage of the time I have and make the most of it. I need to spend time with my friends, do the things I love like writing and taking pictures, prepare myself to be a good wife and mother someday. And I know that someday will come, but I know it's not tomorrow, and it's not next week, or next month, maybe not even next year. But until then, I'm going to do everything I can to be happy. Because if you aren't happy in your current situation, what makes you think something is going to change that? Nothing except you can change that. Only you can decide to be happy.
So be happy while you're figuring it all out. It's the best you can do.
